Lately

When I mean lately, I don't mean that song by Tyrese which is really good but not what I'm going for. So lately I've been thinking about the friendships I've forgered over the years and some I've let go and some I honestly can say I don't care about anymore and some that still hurt. But mostly if you think its directed at you...you could right OR you could be wrong.
Let me 1st start off saying that I want my girls to be happy and whatever toll that takes on our friendship...so be it BUT, I always love the fact that I'm on the 1st ppl to be called/txted/social networked when something in the relationship goes wrong. Well I understand in the beginning you want to spend ALL your free time with your new man...ok cool fine, I get that. I've been there before...actually no I lied. I always tried my hardest to put my friends 1st but anyone I digrace. Let's say for the past 3-4 months things are going swimmingly..life is good which means work and school is going good too and if you have a bad day, you get to talk to you hunny, baby, sweetie...whatever nick name you have for them at the end of the day or go see them (optional.) And I'm cool with that whatever. But when things go wrong..why me? Why am I the 1st to be contacted...we were friends b4 this new person came into your life and I'll be there after they leave for the 6th, 7th or 100th time. I'm not passing and judgement. But how about a call/txt/socail network when things are going well...oh thats right you're with them. Ok fine cool...but how long can you expect for someone who you've known for the past EVER to be cool with it ALL the sudden. Your Saturday nights were spent out to dinner, drinks, downtown with me and a whole bunch of other ppl I didn't care for but I put up with it b/c you and I are friends. And I enjoy myself b/c I'm a ppl person and living where I do...its not too much longer before I see someone I know and fake like. Yeah I know I don't like many people, thats b/c 1. I have a low tolerance for BS and 2. some people NEVER...NEVER grow up. But anyway...I'm there through thick and thin and I guess that's what friendship is all about BUT taking advantage of someone JUST b/c you KNOW they're NEVER, EVER going to turn their back on you is a WHOOOOOOOOOOOLLLLLEEEE other thing. I love ALL my friends but sometimes people break good, long lasting friendships for some guy that could be there for a month or a week. Even though this "real world" so was high school and college...relationships are good but sometimes when you put things to a test friendships either become stronger or don't want to deal with.

I've had a few friendships in my life I've let go and that have gone to the category of it still hurts or I just don't care anymore. I've let friendships go b/c I don't want to "fight" for your attention...yeah some days it still hurts and other days I just don't care anymore. I'm not saying that to be mean but I'm saying that b/c its the truth. Just b/c someone is "friends" with you on facebook doesn't mean you ACTUALLY know them anymore. But its always fun to see what they are up to and how things are going. Sometimes I check up on people just see if their lives are crappier than mine and just so see how close they are to living the way we've always talked about. I've had to let friendships go b/c sometimes it wasn't that strong in the first place and thats perfectly OK.

But the good, bad or the ugly in ANY friendship is that there was a bond formed that wether it be good, bad or ugly was still a good bond at ONE point in time.  I love all my friends dearly and they know that and if they don't then well they know NOW. 

Sometimes you gotta let the old out with the new...and new friendships are ALWAYS fun and sometimes not so much but either way its a bond...you tag each other in photos, in wall posts, etc and create inside jokes b/c maybe for a while it'll let the pain of that old long friendship take the place of something new BUT in the mean time you just try to move forward. I guess that's what life is all about is just moving forward and letting the old and new either come together or split apart. No one plans on losing friendships but sometimes the longer you go without talking to someone the easier it gets....so they say but the truth is pain is pain and no amount of time makes it better. So you learn to maintain a new "normal."

That's all :)